live for the moment

im spending 89% of my time on the net
bcoz i dun wanna study
studying is a bitch
I am so problematic
i have exams to study and i kept thinking about a certain someone
okk.. i have good vibes about him, tht's all
GOOD VIBES
i should return back to normal after a few weeks
i guess, coz he is just a friend


moving along
i have 10% off to k-suite outlets
SCORE
i know working with my ex-boss brings benefits
i did talk to her on FB
really miss working with her
i really don't mind working with them again
but then, the next time i work with them
i must learn how to do readings

ok shall go study
or try to study

i think i am in love.

Everyone has their Prince Charming. Mine just took a wrong turn, got lost, and is too stubborn to ask for directions.

that just explains why i haven found the 1 yet

I have 3 assignments coming up and I have not even started on them yet...
fine, im just lazy to lift up my finger to start
even so, i just feel myself draining
also, i feel quite insecure lately as in i feel uncertain when i am with my og mates
i really wanna score well for my 1st sem
i really do
maybe i should stop paying lip service and do my work
MAYBE
im just crapping here coz i just wanna test my MBP

if i could, i would have waken up covered in cold sweat
but thanks to my air-con

i dreamt that ting committed suicide
and i was crying and crying
and it was awful when people seem so nonchalant about it
like no one shares the sorrow i have
it was really terrible

ting if you are reading this,
no,  my dreams never come true
and most likely i miss you
so hope to hear and see you soon

i will tell you the things i know
and lie about the things i don't

I have no confidence in myself, period.
Godknowswhy am I so flustered when talking to people
they are nice people
but the way that i acted, as if they are out to eat me
izzit some kind of psychological disorder?
or izzit just plain over-exaggerated shyness?

just add low self-esteem + shyness
i think you will get to know how am i feeling

getting a writer's block
because ever since uni started, there has been so much things going on.
met new ppl, go new place, do new things
im just taken aback

well, i met nice people in uni.
i mean they make me feel welcomed and all
but i just feel so insecure
it's just my problem
im holding back
as if i have many untold secrets
i know that some of them may view me as being quiet and reserved
but im not like that

i just feel a little uncomfortable that's all
haha, maybe the time is not ripe yet

just give me more time to adjust

Went to orientation talk today.
Felt really inspired by the PASSION talk

follow your passion, do what you want and you will excel

well, well
I really want to follow my passion by indulging myself in Jap Studies & Sociology
I am just so intrigued by culture & people.
That's me.
Ever so curious & amazed by them.

But like they say

Curiousity always kill the cat.

So I dunno is this a passion or an impulse?
I am always so terrified of being backfired by my passion.
Like struggling through in JC by taking Chinese Lang. & Lit
Honestly, I felt passionate about the subject at first
but when my grades dun seem to agree with me
I felt disheartened and hence find that subject which I once loved, a chore
I guess being passionate is still not enough
You need to score.
And so in order to score, you worked hard for that subject bcoz you feel passionate about it
you feel terrible but yet relieved at the same time bcoz it's better to mug for the subject you hate
hence, passion??

i feel that if we r not so particular about grades.
I don't mind doing something that I love and not performing well in it
but too bad im a Singaporean
that numbers and letters do make a significant change in my life.
So let's don't play around with passion.

Watched Absolute Boyfriend
couldn't stop crying
i thought i hate the drama version of it
but but
SOB

=~~~(


Avril is currently in her self-pity mood
Please try again later.

next outing : wild wild wet with more people
so Anna & Eunice , we'll wait for you!!!
ytd was fun
first time to Sentosa beach
regretted not bringing extra clothes
well, we will have next time to prepare
=D

now back to business
haven't figured out how to pay my school fees
and yea
TIMETABLE
asfdsghgfhgjhk;lks

gotta go train my stamina
Ting's right
must train myself before the Orientation Week
later must do the amazing race
how?
run 5 mins pant like a dog le?

looking forward to next week

Just scribbling before i forget:

Modules to take (uncomfirmed)

EC1101E
EL1101E (volatile)
JS1101E
SC1101E
SSA1201


Timetabling is freaking hard work...
Next up, bidding
which may screwed up whatever you've planned so far

my holiday is ending
and i still haven't fulfill my going-to-the-beach-with-friends wishlist yet
well,,
i know its kinda last minute
and I don't think most of my friends would go there
because i think this is rather last minute
but since monsoon season is over
let's just waste ourselves there

sigh

i simply admire my friend, Dorcas.
She performed average for A levels, however, was denied of her favourite course, Psychology
So, she decided to retake A levels as a private candidate.
We did encourage her to apply for local university because after all her results was average
she was offered by NTU Sociology
However, that wasn't what she wanted
if I were her, I would gladly accept that.
Stuck with the second best.

Well, ever since after primary school onto secondary school and onto JC
I have been stuck with the second best.
Denied from my dream choice.
It is actually futile to resist it, no matter how I appeal, it is pointless.
I really admire her to pursue her dream course.
Because she has something that I lacked.
The Determination to take A levels again.
The Courage to reject second best.

I hope she did well for this year A levels.

Onto today's test.
It sucked.
I didn't study anything as mentioned previously.
So, no surprise if I was stunned by it
it was regarding media violence
regretted didn't study more on media during GP
well, it's over
OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Watching the Bachelor right now

so so so don't get it

you know the girls hang out and talk
and they asked this question

When did you lose your virginity?

one answered after high sch
and there's this girl said that she's saving herself

insert [ many OMGs and squels]

What's wrong with saving your virginity？ people!
you are not gonna give it away just becoz you feel horny right?
or the guy is pressing you to?

She has her own belief to save it
and no one is going to think any less of her
if  they did
i feel sorry for them

I just need a new laptop...
and i went to consult my uncle
and got the u-need-one-laptop-dun-waste-money talk
well, there's a difference between the one i am using at home
and the one i'm going to use it for school

I don't have a desktop because my room is small and cramp
i can't even get the smallest plasma tv in the market to fit in
and u know laptop being slim and compact
hence, been using this for years.
but it is getting old... 3yrs old
and you know , in technological terms
1 yr = 10 yrs
because technology keeps renewing and reinventing
and that cool baby you have it's gonna depreciate every single minute

well, im not going to abandon my sony vaio
becoz it is workable
but i just want another laptop for school purpose
because my sony vaio is very personal to me
with all my mangas and games and musics
i would need the extra memory space
and also i spotted some wear-n-tear in my vaio
if i carry this to sch, he will die within 6 mths
just like when i dropped my tamagotchi in the toilet bowl when i was 9

i just want a new notebook
haven't consult my parents abt it
fearing my uncle will somehow persuade them to the dark side

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really want to stay up until 1 or 2 am today
because I wanna watch project runway and the bachelor
but i can't
have stupid qet tmr
get done and over with
at 9.30am
tmr

nope!
not planning to study QET..
not worth my time anyway
and i don't think its something u can study for.
i think it's more of an english aptitude test.
its something innate.

but there are some people who took up tuition in order to pass this test.
Pls .... it's not A level anymore
besides... if you fail this test
then you are required to take up some english modules
that's all

yup im taking this lightly
its nothing to kill myself for.

It's ending.
My supposedly after A's holiday is ending soon....
why good things end so fast?
now onto uni
no more uniforms, nagging teachers and short 10 mins walk to-and-fro to sch

now i gotta organise a get-together before everyone get busy with their lives again...

无猜无邪无私
无瑕的友情无价
你是买不到的奢华

to all my friends out there ...

just 3 hours back from HK
i puked/barfed/vomitted
then the next 2 hours
i had diarrhea

dont jump to a conclusion that i have H1N1
as i have no fever or any flu-like symptoms
and dont freak out
because the doctor said it was just a stomach virus
and told me not to eat anything that contain milk or too much oil for 1 week
drats...
and im craving for a choco milkshake right now
sianzzz

argh June is coming to an end soon
i haven't study for my QET yet
assdfjdfh

lately i feel that im as fragile as a glass
i have never seen a doctor so many times in 6 months
gotta get better soon
becoz im going back to school soon

DO you think maybe its school that drives the doc away??
anything is possible
like how MJ died of cardiac arrest so suddenly

thoughts on H1N1
it would kinda suck if i miss my shopping trip to HK
and kena infected within my country
besides what are the odds of getting it
and anywhoos, the rate is getting higher day by day

speculation: it may be like SARS once again and i will get a month holiday just when i start school AGAIN

my skin is turning bad
i have breakouts ON MY FACE
with like 7 pimples on it
it look like a little dipper constellation sign
what the heck is going with me?